Wednesday, 11 April 2012

  • Unfinished business..

    I started writing this some time back, can't seem to get myself in the mood to finish it. So, I am going to post it on here, and hope to possibly get some creative feed back to get the juices flowing. Hah. Sorry, that sounded a little wrong...but you catch my drift. :D

    Here goes;

    For a second it felt like the earth would stand still
    The winds would stop, and the waters would trill
    Need not fear, when the end has come
    I will be here, with the loaded gun.
    The last glimpse of the sun, as it caress my porcelain face
    And in an exchange of fire, I will go out ablaze.
    The skies will close up, and weep for its loss
    A child she bare, once again was so lost..
    Mountains clashed, over disgruntled disagreements.
    Clouds..downpour, the sky is gray with grievance

Monday, 29 March 2010

  • This shit was all I knew, you and me only..

    I swear, why do I fuck up everything good?

    I don't want him to leave me, I love him more than anything. He and I had plans for our future, for forever. He CAN trust me again, I don't think I lied about my past, but I was on A LOT of pills back then, I have no reason to lie, but if I did how would I know? Better question, why the hell would I have lied? Maybe I was afraid to tell him about my past, maybe I was afraid to let him know, possibly embarassed of my past? That still doesn't explain why I would have lied though, I love him more than anything, now I'm afraid I might lose him.

    Oh dear God, have mercy on me, cause I CAN NOT lose him, this is my everything, who I love, I've never made plans for a future with someone, because I never wanted a relationship again after Morgan, thought that I wasn't made for relationships, thought I could have one. I thought I could not be loved for God sakes, and he changed ALL of that, now I might lose that.

    I'm gonna stop now, I feel sick, I need a drink...I feel like I want to die. Ugh. How do I manage to do this dumb shit?? Without even fucking meaning to? I really do remember telling him, I am slowly begining to dislike myself.

    :(

Monday, 22 March 2010

  • The Golden Rule

    ...Do unto others, as you wish them to do to you...


    There's Something Called Respect of Privacy...Most Females Don't Know This, It Seems.
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    So, here's my BIG problem with most females these days. A lot of which I am friends with, or related to, or just see publicly.

    Here's the issue. So your boyfriend leaves the room, or forgets his phone, or falls asleep..and you deem it okay to look through his phone? I would NEVER do such a thing, nor would I expect my boyfriend to do this to me. We understand each others privacy, and respect it. Not as if I am hiding ANYTHING from him, nor him hiding ANYTHING from me, but why would you just think it's okay to go through someones phone that's not yours...anyone's at that!

    I always hear females talking about, oh I went through my boyfriends phone the other day, or he was getting calls so while he was in the shower I just checked who it was!

    First off, if you are in a relationship with someone, and you can't just ask them who called, or don't trust what they say. Then perhaps, just perhaps that relationship is not right for you! Maybe you shouldn't be with that person, or YOU are just so fucking annoying and nagging, that they just want you to shut the fuck up and stop asking so many questions, maybe ask yourself; Does this person ask me questions when people call my phone, Do they not trust me enough to just ask? And have to look through my phone? Should I be with someone who I don't trust?

    Second of all, HOW DARE YOU. How do you lack so much respect that you look through someone's personal belongings? Would you go through someones purse? Would you go through things in someone's house when you were visiting it? Check their cabinets, and drawers? DID YOUR PARENTS NOT TEACH YOU ANY BETTER? Or are you just that disrespectful? If you say yes to any of these, then I wish an invisible hand would come and SMACK you in your face right now. Right fucking meow...and yes, I said meow. (Thank you Super Troopers)

    Lastly, think about this...What ever you do find out, if anything, by not respecting someone's personal space, what exactly do you plan to do about that? "Hunnie, today I was being a completely nosey respect lacking bitch and went through your personal belongings, who's this Janet person who texted you that YOU said I love you too?!"
    Response; "Oh, you mean my cousin Janet, the one you met at the last Thanksgiving dinner? Would you like to call that number and speak to her? Better yet, WHY THE HELL WERE YOU IN MY PHONE?"
    Then, that sparks an argument, you're a dumb bitch. The end.

    I mean, if you do find something, then obviously, you're not gonna give a shit about saying anything, but if something really was going on, don't ya think you would find out one way or another anyways without being completely disrespectful. Sure, I see the one pro to the many cons. You found out, but can I ask you, are you happy now?? You would have found out one way or another? Why do something like that and blow up your own spot, I mean I would rather find out on my own, and beat HIM and the bitch with my fucking bat, rather than be a nosey bitch looking through SOMEONE'S stuff. NOT YOURS.

    End rant.


    Sorry about that, random rant...I was watching The Kardashian's(the show started me thinking, then this rant, thank the Kardashians!)with a few friends and my boyfriend today, and two out of the three were like, "Oh, I've done that before" it's like, how dare you? They are on TV, for everyone to see, searching each others boyfriends texts, breaking into their voice mails, hacking their facebook and emails. I would feel so guilty, not only that, I wouldn't want anyone to do that to me.

    Remember the golden rule in school; Do unto others, as you wish done to you.

    Yeah, YOU FAIL.

    Anyone else agree? I would love to hear other peoples opinions.

  • Screw You Emily

    So, I remember like 5 years ago, some guy got angry about his girl cheating on him, or wife rather, and made a website with all these terrible pictures on it she probably wouldn't want anyone seeing, except her husband of course. Haha.

    It makes me happy to say, another dummy has cheated and had a site made about her too.

    Have fun guys! Hahaha.

    http://www.screwyouemily.net/index.php?c=viral&m=index&id=622d9be6e34020d7c0641b0c21979b2d


    You know, I should feel terrible that I am only helping with this cause, but...I feel no pity for someone who will cheat, so why not help spread the word. :]

  • LMAO xD


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    Haha, saw this on facebook, my tattoo artist was tagged in it. Thought it was fucking HILARIOUS. Had to post in on here...

    Soo, anyways. I started this xanger to just keep my poetry on until I decide to get it published, or erm...well, until I feel like putting the effort and money into publishing it, rather.
    Haven't used a xanger in years, decided, you know what? I'm gonna post on it. ^_^

    I don't know anyone on xanger anymore, which makes me HAPPY...cause well...people don't need to know what I post about, or what I wanna vent about. Sometimes I just need to vent to something that just won't talk back, hahaha.

    Anyways, it's fucking warm in my room. I have no random rant to well, rant about. So farewell for now.